I stand in the slightly chilled lake,
where the opening meets the trees (I can still see the path from here),
under the uncluttered sky with only twinkling stars racing across the atmosphere
my bare feet sinking into the soft mucky sand; as they sink I swish my toes.
I stand with my arms open wide
trying to hug the silence and contentment.
With the small breeze flowing across the pond
its water gently circling around my ankles
pleasing my skin as it is focused via wind
moonlight shinning upon me illuminating my outline in the dark surroundings
shimmering its silvery beam off my white flowered gown
creating a beacon of me in the
The Other Side of the Mirror by darksaturn9, literature
Literature
The Other Side of the Mirror
I can see you gazing in the mirror.
The evil mirror that enticed you, that drew you to a bleak obsession
And I want to screech "STOP"
I love you! I love you! I LOVE YOU!
You are my second mother,
No you are my real mother; the only one I remember
My natural mother died at my birth; I was never forgiven.
into my life you came at time when I was most vulnerable, most frightened
I received hugs and kisses and the love that I wanted, I needed
you made me feel required, that I was someone even though I wasn't born a boy, a son, an heir.
until father gave you that mirror, I blame him and his odious mind,
he gave you that mirror to dis
A little ball of fur you came to us, almost all black with bits of brown and white
So small you could fit into my thirteen year old hand and still have room.
A mischievous dog you were. Constantly bolting outside when you were young
making us chase you till we were winded and tired and had to tricked you to come home
but smart as you were you caught onto all the tricks of the trade and made us think
Always getting into things; the fridge was your smorgasbord for when you were hungry
so smart that you knew how to open it and feast, feast, feast.
Tilting your head when we called your name you try to listen to what we had to say
but you
These walls freak me out
the same walls day in and day out.
I sit alone
pondering what my day is going to be
what I am going to do
who I am going to be.
Bored out of my mind
passing the time away till my boyfriend comes home from work.
Watching TV, reading, being bored. Thinking on my situation.
Frustrate at my situation
Frustrate at myself for getting me into this situation.
All have time to do is think.
to feel sorry for myself.
to worry about what is going to happen in my life
day in and day out
sitting on my gray couch staring at my walls
going a little more insane every day.
Will I be able to recover?
When will be happ
No one was walking the beach today
where I was observing life becoming colorless,
colors swirling together in one big color mess.
One big blob hazing through the sky
while the rain hailed wetting everything outside
washing away my footprints in the sand
so no one could follow me, I was running away.
From the troubles, from the pleasures.
Everything was too overwhelming, too much to handle.
I didn't want to feel anything, everything
everyone wanted me to feel
to be everything everyone wanted me to be
which was why I was alone on that colorless day
hoping no one would find me
but I knew at some point someone would.
For now I
I have a hard decision to make.
One that I have no clue which way I should go.
Do I decide to preserve life or do I take one?
If I preserve, if I keep her alive
then the quality of hers is living death.
She will never be the same as she was before.
If I chose death and let her die
I'd feel the grim reaper swallowing me whole
and knife where he stabbed my heart.
But I would be keeping her alive mostly for me and not for her.
How am I supposed to choose?
each conclusion is breaking my heart, life or death,
I cry in jagged spurts and my vision blurs
I have to pull over my car and weep until snivels takeover.
My world will not be
I sit in the dark lonely tower
picking at the lint and strings on my gray shabby dress
Waiting,
for the inbred idiots of the royal court
to screw up life up,
which I know will be soon.
I lift my head as I hear the sword of the guard rattling against him
as he climbs the stone stairs. I look at him with worn eyes; he jadedly nods.
I must follow him to the Great Hall and do my trade or else I will be pitched out.
I am the one everyone yells at when the Royals do dumb things.
In Great Hall and I stand before these people, listening
as Dames cry, Counts bellow, Cooks yelp, everyone lays their woes on me.
They take their turn to de-st
I watch this beautiful boy;
starless night hair,
pale moon skin,
small button nose,
pink open lips,
mud eyes that are hidden by sleep.
I sigh at this cherished sight. Only seen when he sleeps.
He is my charge, I am his keeper,
in daylight, in nightlight.
How quiet he looks now,
how innocent. Something I wish he would always be.
Safely tucked under Sesame Street
peacefully taking in small long breathes,
looking the part of a good little boy; an angelic creature.
A part he never plays.
Always keeping me on my toes in day; a mischievous creature he is,
but inactive in night as he quietly dreams of the day spent.
This is when I
I forgive you.
for the names you have called me,
for the pain you have caused me,
for the stress and anxiety I faced because of you.
I stopped holding the long and painful grudge inside.
The things you have done in the past are sand in the wind;
blown away in the passing of time.
My wounds have healed and the scars fade
to the point where naked eye can't see them.
What you did was wrong,
mournful and knife stabbing wrongs.
Life for me was drowning in a lake
and you were the one holding the life preserver,
having the power whether I live or die.
But the misery doesn't have power over me. (I am no longer drowning.)
You don't ha
I am one of the forgotten ones
the ones who are put on a mantelpiece to gather dust,
the ones who are misplaced in the jumbled thoughts of some busy body,
mislaid behind soccer practice and the need to buy milk.
I am the one that everyone never tries to remember
the lost thought in a crowd full of scattered memories
with me ranking at the bottom of important things.
My voice vanished in the blaring music that inhibits your thoughts.
I will sit on the steps and wait for a ride that was promised to me for hours.
The clock ticks down and no one comes
I find my own ride home; one foot in front of the other I walk into the night
wit
I stand in the slightly chilled lake,
where the opening meets the trees (I can still see the path from here),
under the uncluttered sky with only twinkling stars racing across the atmosphere
my bare feet sinking into the soft mucky sand; as they sink I swish my toes.
I stand with my arms open wide
trying to hug the silence and contentment.
With the small breeze flowing across the pond
its water gently circling around my ankles
pleasing my skin as it is focused via wind
moonlight shinning upon me illuminating my outline in the dark surroundings
shimmering its silvery beam off my white flowered gown
creating a beacon of me in the
The Other Side of the Mirror by darksaturn9, literature
Literature
The Other Side of the Mirror
I can see you gazing in the mirror.
The evil mirror that enticed you, that drew you to a bleak obsession
And I want to screech "STOP"
I love you! I love you! I LOVE YOU!
You are my second mother,
No you are my real mother; the only one I remember
My natural mother died at my birth; I was never forgiven.
into my life you came at time when I was most vulnerable, most frightened
I received hugs and kisses and the love that I wanted, I needed
you made me feel required, that I was someone even though I wasn't born a boy, a son, an heir.
until father gave you that mirror, I blame him and his odious mind,
he gave you that mirror to dis
A little ball of fur you came to us, almost all black with bits of brown and white
So small you could fit into my thirteen year old hand and still have room.
A mischievous dog you were. Constantly bolting outside when you were young
making us chase you till we were winded and tired and had to tricked you to come home
but smart as you were you caught onto all the tricks of the trade and made us think
Always getting into things; the fridge was your smorgasbord for when you were hungry
so smart that you knew how to open it and feast, feast, feast.
Tilting your head when we called your name you try to listen to what we had to say
but you
Many years ago you came to us a skinny black and white cat.
Mistaken for another, my other black and white baby,
we took you in and thought you ours
and from that moment you were taken into our hearts; mine especially.
You flourished under our care and grew from skin and bone to a healthy one.
A bitch of a cat , you were, who bullied all other animals in the house
until a little baby cat took our your reign.
But I still loved you for who you were.
The peculiar cat who try to suck on my fingers
and would give me a hug when I carried you (that's how I knew you weren't the other).
Crawling under the covers at all times of the night
I feel so lifeless
there is no person left inside to exist for the day
so I zombie through it
with no thoughts,
no emotions
no soul left for others to see the person I used to be.
Smiling is something that I cannot even fake today.
Happiness cannot be forced from a place
where a black hole found itself
wedge between my heart and my head
sucking all into its deep depths and making it so I can't breathe
or live my plain existence.
I cannot try to live anymore
I cannot try to believe anymore
I just wander through here and drag my feet
hoping that life will just swallow me whole.
That the black hole will take my body
and not j
beautiful maidens
wait for their man
in towers of horror
for their love to save them.
I want him, I need him
they say
what they don't know
they can save themselves; there's a backdoor
for help is far away.
the errant knights have lost their way.
the maidens wait. Days,
Months,
Years in time.
the damsels in distress
will be no more.
they cry,
they weep
for their lovers sleep.
dust blinded their eyes.
Pretty ladies
what should you do?
Can you hand me my life?
I seem to have lost it
between the beatings and pleasing.
I am no longer the person
I once was years ago
before the terrors I face now.
I would like an official certificate in my name
stating that I actually do live;
I am not a statistic on someone's survey
I am a body; fleshed and boned with feeling. not a hollow corpse for him to toss about.
He would like me to be hidden in a corner doing his bidding
until his anger needs to be released and then have him come find me.
And I become a punching bag for a two-ton ape
who likes nothing better than having his world to his own.
I need something more than thi
Walking Down AppianWay on Feb6 by darksaturn9, literature
Literature
Walking Down AppianWay on Feb6
The world becomes blurry through my tearing eyes.
Its haze swirls around my head in a sickening, dizzy spell.
I stumble out of the Student Center in an intoxicated trance
and drag my feet up the sandy pavement of Appian Way
noticing every face has a smile on it as if it were a sunny day.
With a hopeless stride I walk by the DC and raise my head to the graying sky
and shout "Why can't everyone feel like me?"
(at least just for today when everything is so gray and dim inside and out).
But no one answers my questions, a noisy silence is my response.
The only ones that seem to share my mood are the trees,
lonely bare trees stripped of
It has become the darkened night.
Weary, I go barefooted
outside in the misty black shade,
hovering on the edge of the marginal light. Clinging to the border of the house.
With each noise, each crack of branch and twig
my head turns right then swings left. The sounds creep near.
The sounds that are never heard in the day speak volumes at night.
My chest tightens with each breath
knowing it's dangerous to take my next step.
Something haunts the gloom between the trees
readying for an attack. It breathes on the back of my neck. It is near.
The wind exhales a chill down my spine. My body trembles. Cold, it is so cold.
The midnight su
Retreat!!
I'm under attack!
massive armies charge at my ears
their bullets streak my back.
Pain, oh the miserable pain
shall kill me here and now.
Must find the foxhole to crawl into
shelter myself from the battle.
Call in the noisy reinforcements
Bach, Beethoven, Korn
to generate a resistance of sound.
Enough volume to cover over the combat.
With weapon straight in hand
I crawl head first into the barricade.
Strapping the surround sound around my lobes
firing the next tune launcher at the attack.
One by one the musical troops line up in hearing
picking up their instruments against the fight.
Crank up the commotion, turn it
Retreat!!
I'm under attack!
massive armies charge at my ears
their bullets streak my back.
Pain, oh the miserable pain
shall kill me here and now.
Must find the foxhole to crawl into
shelter myself from the battle.
Call in the noisy reinforcements
Bach, Beethoven, Korn
to generate a resistance of sound.
Enough volume to cover over the combat.
With weapon straight in hand
I crawl head first into the barricade.
Strapping the surround sound around my lobes
firing the next tune launcher at the attack.
One by one the musical troops line up in hearing
picking up their instruments against the fight.
Crank up the commotion, turn it
Favourite genre of music: everything except rap and country Favourite photographer: Margot Hauer (i know i she's my baby sis but i like her pics) Favourite style of art: impressionism Operating System: windows 10 MP3 player of choice: my voice (watch out for the broken glass though) Shell of choice: turtle Wallpaper of choice: anything anime or faeries Skin of choice: green Favourite cartoon character: sailor moon (by the power of the moon i shall punish you) Personal Quote: Nothing good comes by staying with normal people
yes he has typical features, but since you're a cat lover you know you can pick out your own cat out of line up any day, because you know their expressions. i have two cats but sometimes you have a favourite cat, and Rocky is my favourite for sure!
my cat beatrice was my favorite (though she died last november) cause she was sooooo freaking weird. she sucked on my fingers and would sleep under my covers and stuff